Posted: Saturday, February 20, 2010 @ 9:01 PM
I've been having a really rough weekend. I got a dose of how it feels to get stab in the front and back. How a person that you support and think of so nicely, a person that was your happy-pill, keeping you up and bright whenever she is around, can suddenly turn a 360 degrees at you and show her true colors. If you are wondering who I mean here, the person I meant was
Tiffany a.k.a BLACKCHERRY. I think those that browse around in winglin often (especially BoJoong fans) will know her for her rated fanfics.
How I began associating with her was from being drawn by her pretty posters. Then I find her writings pretty good. *despite them being rated* So I went to support her and joined BJF. When she needed poster help, I offer my assistance, and soon got attached to her that I got brainwashed by her 'kindness and attachment', encouraging me to like BoJoong pairing and encourage me to write the pairing. I was so silly. My dongsaeng(From...With-Love/JaE-LoVe) had problems with her as well that made her life a living hell. She warned me about BLACKCHERRY just using me and silly me took it lightly. I heard rumors about her talking bad about me behind me but I choose to not believe it and believe her. She soon ask me to be admin in her forum and I did, taking the opportunity, I help my dongsaeng to collect back her stuff from the forum by unbanning her. Soon I got my punishment stabbed me harder than I can ever expected.
Yesterday, she was just greeting me nicely like before when she suddenly burst saying she was pissed at people copying her writing style, and she soon reveal to me that she meant me and Scandalous(another BoJoong writer). She accused us of copying her wording and structure. She then say people are dumb at internet, that they can't be expect to tell the truth. I thought she meant she was thinking I wasn't telling the truth but then this is what she said - 'Wow! You are so slow. It's the other way around. To tell the truth... Me and shipperr has always find you arrogant, acting like a know-it-all judging our work. Who do you think you are to judge our work? Take care.' With that I have the harsh reality of how she really felt about me burst to my face. I decided to quit from the forum once and for all, leaving notice in each of my stories there that I am leaving the forum for unforeseeable reason. I still didn't want the people at BJF to know the side of her that I know so I didn't state the reason for my leave. But I still wanted to check back till this weekend for any of the readers comment on my leave, see if they are requesting for any of my help to contact me again. Then I have another strike to my face the next day.
This is my conversation with her today. I might not be able to get everything but it is majority there, especially the exact words she used:
BC: hi phebs, i apologize for what i said yesterday
i know you mite feel hurt...anger....n mad...
n i hav no right to make u feel as a friend wif me again
P: What's there to apologize.
You are only telling the truth
I should be glad that you are no longer pretending around me
BC: well i am glad that you are able to face the truth as how other ppl thinks abt u.
lol it amaze me how u can still go to BJF
P: I am just taking my stuff. You can delete me now if you want.
BC: of course i will. after all u wont be returning to BJF after all. =)
just to let you know, there's many lies in the world. and u just happen to be living one and there are many others that you are livin in
P: You are right. I should thank you for your 'LESSON'
BC: i really hate how you copy my writing style. i hope u wont ever write a bojoong fan fiction again. =)
P: That's weird. I haven't say anything about you using Lee Minho after I did.
BC: lol, where did tat come from? Lee Minho? He don't belong to anyone.
Everyone start using Lee Minho after watchin Boys over Flower duh?
It's so obvious that you copy my IOU, Me Stalk You.
P: How so? I don't see any similarity at all.
BC: lol, you have a very thick face
P: I am just learning from you.
BC: lol, i think u're speaking about urself more
i think u should learn to accept like how should i say it, u should learn to stop judgin others work
P: that's a difference in judging others work and giving constructive comments
BC: lol who do u think u are to make those comment wen ur work is not even close to pro?
how can u criticize my manipulation wen u never made one before?
talk about being unreasonable.
P: I am just pointing out place where I think you can make it look better if you have the ability. I never say I was a pro.
BC: i am still thinking if i should tell u something...maybe i shouldn't i am really scare that you might break down and cry
lol
P: well, why would you bother about that. Don't you LOVE to do this for your own personal
enjoyment anyway
BC: aw what are you saying? i am not tat mean.
i care about you phebs.
i even apologize to u but u wont accept it... n i'm just being striaght forward since i want you to know the truth. i mean aren't friends suppose to tell each other the truth?
P: If you are a true friend as you say you are, you don't need to wait till so long to tell the truth
BC: lol i am apoloygizing cuz i didn't tell u before how harsh it mite be to u
well better late than never
=)
maybe alot of friends are feeling the same, you should really think about it. it's for ur own gd phebs =)
P: you are right. I should just shut up and not comment on anything. Better yet, just be a silent reader
No wonder theres so many silent readers in this world
BC: lol maybe u should just how to comment better, it's a skill phebs. you just hav to learn from your mistake
it feels so good to hav such a loyal friend like u phebs, u are quiting BJF wen I am ^^
P: If you still treat me as a friend, you will delete my fics, since I am leaving BJF.
BC: Yes because I am treating you are a friend, the last thing I can do is to delete BoJoong Fever for you.
P: Why thank you. THANK YOU for your noble work. I won't want anyone copying my work.
BC: LOL. You think your stories is SOOO GOOD that people will copy?
P: Oh wait. Why are you deleting the whole site? You only have to delete my fics. You don't have to delete the whole sites.
BC: well i'm doing it for everyone one gd. like i wont want writers to copying each other.
i felt it alot of times, it really hurt phebs.
P: But their writings are nothing like each other
you should at least give them a warning
I want BJF out of my life not theirs. They haven't made any decision yet
BC: for your information, it's the admin decision =)
P: You never wanted the good of BoJoong. You only want whats good for you. That's how selfish you are
BC: No, actually u got it wrong, ppl like u only go to bojoong n post ur ff, cuz u want readers
ppl like u are doing for it for ur own gd too
u just want readers as much as i do. it's logic, since u're a writer
u go to bojoong fever cuz u just want to get MY readers
take essence for example, i never talked to her before and she post her first fan fiction saying something on the title [DEDICATED TO BLACKCHERRY~]
she just want my readers
lol
P: No, ppl are just grateful to you for creating the forum
and you treat it like shit
BC: maybe cuz i look down at them
cuz they are below age for mature contents n they beg to read them
P: speak for yourself
BC: lol damn i tot u were smart
i guess alot fo things u cant figure out
man how depressin
P: Sorry, my mind isn't as twisted as yours.
BC: maybe u should just use ur brain a little bit more
it's realyl sad
well ^^ not tell u phebs! hope u wont ever copy anyone's fan fictions again. it's not nice
Bye!
P: Bye and may we never meet again.
BC: LOL. What are you talking about? We never meet before.
Are you brainless?
ROFL
XD
P: You are the brainless. It doesn't have to be a physical meet.
Our conversation ends there when she didn't reply. She banned me from her forum (BJF) so I can't access nor can I sign out from it now. So for those in the forum and see my name on, I am not there, it is just I can't log out of the DAMN site.
*Bear witness that she said she will delete me. I didn't want to stay only I can't escape.
Well, that's all of them. You can choose to believe me or not. But I can say I never made up anything in the convo and the encounter up there. The words may not be the exact use since I deleted the convo with her already and only told some to my dongsaeng. But the meaning and everything is there.
I am completely disappointed with this person and don't want her in any part of my life ever again. I am just sharing my experience here hopping people won't get hurt by her ever again. There are a few people out there that is a victim of her fakeness(But I can't list them down since it is without their permission) Anyway, I let you be the judge of the matter. If you still wanna associate with her, its at your own choice, but be very VERY caution. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
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Story from other victims as well:
Raine helped BLACKCHERRY set up her first BoJoong forum. But then she got busy and inactive because of college. One day, she give some criticism to BLACKCHERRY about the bad layout design she had then and then Raine got banned and was kicked out of the admin team. That's how BLACKCHERRY is. Don't offend her, she might be good to you when she has use for you but when she done with you, she shows the grudge she still holds and make you payback double of what she felt.
